Gay Life in Singapore

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If you've been reading my blog frequent enough, you'd probably know what kind of guys I'm into.

I like guys who are fair, cute and boyish. Of course, nothing fat and nothing too thin is important as well (sorry to break the hearts of the bears and monkeys)

If there's one thing that Singapore fail to capture my heart with, it is the gay community in Singapore. I will come to the reason why later. Singapore, being a more open country still has laws against homosexual acts. However, the law has never been enforced and the gay scene continues to grow with many 'sauna' and 'spa' available for gay men to meet and to have fun with each other.

There are ways to get to see the gay community in Singapore. Among them are;

- Sauna and spa

- Gay clubs

- mIRC

Saunas and spas are basically free for all hunting ground for people who get in there. Entry fee to these places can go as high as SGD30 which is almost the price you pay for a whore at Geylang, but there's no guarantee that you'll be able to find something you like in it, but the last time I checked, these places are blooming with business! Asking from experience AJs (the term Singaporean use for gays), they said some saunas are better than the others such as Absolute where you'll almost find 'good catch' most of the time.

Gay clubs in Singapore are similar with the ones in Malaysia. You pay for an entrance fee and you get in. You dance with your buddies till the night ends and you head home and sleep. Yes, it's that boring here in both countries usually. The only difference you get in Singapore is the music there is much better than the ones in Oblique and Marketplace. Any attempt from you trying to know someone will most likely be perceived that you're a weirdo. Of course, there are exceptional cases (such as you're a celebrity or a Caucasian). Expect to see lots of moneyboys trying to fish for Caucasians for paid sex. Other than that, most people are there trying to have fun with their own group.

mIRC for the gay community in Singapore and Malaysia is very vital, especially for people who are looking for casual sex, chats and knowledge about the gay world in real time (forums are too slow, portals are slow too). In Malaysia, the server would be DALNet and the channel would be #gaymalaysia while in Singapore, the server would be Galaxynet and the channel you'd want to be in is #sgboy and #gam .

In mIRC you get lots of people looking for sex and all kinds of fetishes such as;

- any chn/mly boy got place (amk) and pop wanna touch/lick/suck 29 176 66 tanned chn bi 6' jucy cock in running shorts/sexy brief/trunks/gstring....no chubb pls

- anyone alone and horny in serangoon wanna jo?

- seeking for transsexuals or shemales only..17 183 56 chn top in amk..

All in all, mIRC is the way to go if you're looking for fun in Singapore as it's free (providing you have Wifi access and a laptop/desktop) and you actually get to see the people you want to get on bed with before you meet them. It's definitely more effective than hitting the clubs and getting to know your targets' looks unlike you hitting the sauna not knowing what to expect in it.

In addition, I've also found out that the gay sex trade (prostitution) is much higher valued compared to the straight's. Often enough in #sgboy I see people asking to be paid for sex. As mentioned, a shag in Geylang cost averagely SGD30. While in the #sgboy channel, I've seen guys asking for SGD150 per shag and there are takers to his price, surprisingly.

I was curious myself and thus wanted to know how much would I be worth if I'm involved in the trade thus I went on disguise and started asking to be paid for sex. Of course, if you're offering your body, you'll need a good picture of yourself and I use the one below.

Am not sure if I should be happy or what, but from the offers that came in, my price ranges from SGD120 to SGD150 per shag and for a moment I was calculating that I should just do this right away instead of running the Blog Awards. Lol. I couldn't do it, as you may already know, I hate living a life where I'm dependent on someone else. Being a moneyboy means I'm subject to do things I hate which involves servicing fat, old horny fags. Fuck this shit, I don't sleep around for money. If I do sleep around, I'd do it with cute, fair, boyish guys. :D

Nevertheless, it was fun cock teasing the horny fugly fags that were trying hard to sleep with me. Lol.

After 2 weeks in Singapore and browsing their gay community, I think it's safe for me to say, most of their gays are not what I look for in a shag buddy. Majority of the gays are either tanned, manly, Muscle Marys or old/fugly/fat. Only a handful of them have the boyish looks or fair and most of these handfuls are moneyboys who wants money for sex.

Thus if there's one thing that fails to attract me in Singapore was the gay community which is due to my own personal preference. However, everything in Singapore is great! Low cost of living, strong currency, good government, great public transport and almost no crime in the streets!! It sucks to be a Malaysian visiting Singapore for work. T_T

Oh well, that pretty much sums up the gay life I've observed in Singapore.

chinese-boy

P.S. Do not ask if I did anything in Singapore. I will not answer.

Cheers

Robb

Robb's Past - The Beginning

I've decided to share my life more with my dearest readers. Thus, I'm going to tell my tale as young as when I was a teenager in which I happen to realize myself getting fond of the same gender.

Shh.. this is kinda like my secret

Here goes.

Let's start at Form 1.

I never belonged to any group of friends in primary school. Peers knew me for being a fat taekwondo brainiac cause I happened to be a state champion who kinda excel in studies. Other than that, no regular friends to hang out with, no close friends, nothing. Not surprising since my family is pretty strict about us going out of the house other than being at school.

This continued in Form 1 but the amount of students has increased from 4 classes to 10 in my case. There were more peers, and I started to blend in, but still stood out due to my large size. I was no longer the most brainy one as there are more vicious tigers in academic aspect.

Taekwondo was no doubt a major part of my growing up life which I hate and love it. I love it because I enjoyed practicing it despite it being tough. The hate part came from a toe infection that I had incurred from improper care of my toenail and practicing taekwondo made me very painful all the time with it.

Taken away from my brainy and taekwondo, I am left with nothing but my guts to speak out and lead, as I was made the class monitor back then. Well, I was happy I was a class monitor back then, as that granted me access to an activity that I'll never forget.

Leadership camps. Monitors from every class forms a Monitorial Board and they hold camps for juniors each year. Well, mine was organized by the Form 2s as the seniors in the morning session don't give a fuck about us kiddos. Lol.

An entire new experience came from camps like this. Games, leadership qualities, jokes, raggings, making juniors strip down to their underpants and run around the field and more. Lol. I was totally enjoying the experience despite the hardship that we had to follow orders because deep inside me, I knew I'll be doing this to the juniors the following year. Lol.

On the last day of the camp, right before the campers are being released, the seniors brought a few of the better juniors out for a yamcha session and talked. It was for bonding and stuff like that. After that, they brought me to a cyber cafe to play Half Life.

And that was the very first cyber cafe that I've ever visited in my life. The name was - Triple Net. Some old school Ipohans may still remember this name. It was located near the old Tai Wah cinema in the town area.

And ever since then, I've been patronizing the cyber cafe every weekend after taekwondo lessons at school or even on Fridays before the school started (prayers, thus school starts 2.30pm). One faithful Friday, I came across a very special person that I believe changed my life quite a bit.

His name was Billy.

I can't imagine I can still remember his name, Billy Ng. In fact, all of the sudden I even remember his cellphone number! God! It's not in my phone book, but it's in my mind. Lol.

Okay, back to my story.

Billy is the owner of the cybercafe called Triple Net. Well, half of it, cause he's a shareholder with another girl which I've forgotten her name now. How did he get to know me? Funny story.

It was one faithful Friday that I've decided to tell my parents I wanna go to school earlier for some 'extra curricular activity'. Lol. And so I left home and headed out to Triple Net to play games. :P

When I arrived, the cyber cafe was pretty full and available stations were scarce. I walked to the counter and the following conversation took place.

Me : Hi, is there any available PC for me?

Dude : No. We don't allow fat people to play here.

Somehow I missed the sign in the cybercafe that says 'No Fat Kid'

I was like, WTF??? Lol. Bear in mind that I was a fat boy back then.

Dude : I'm just kidding. Here's a PC available for you.

Me : Thanks.

And so the dude passed me a card number indicating my PC. At the same time, I noticed there was actually a list where people who arrived before me wrote their names down so whenever there's an available PC, they'll be taking it. That freaking means, this dude just let me cut queue. Nice!

So I went on to my PC and played my games. Starcraft if I'm not mistaken. I was pretty good with Zerg back then. Knew all the rushes and micro managing. Don't think I can say the same now. :( As time flew past, I realized I need to get to school before it starts. So, I packed up my stuff and headed over the counter to pay. The same dude was there.

Dude : Done playing?

Me : Yea. How much would it be?

Dude : I'll spend you. Where are you heading to?

Me : Really? Thanks! I'm going to school right now.

Dude : Which school?

Me : St Michael's Institution

Dude : I'm going out to the bank. I'll fetch you along.

Me : Serious?

It actually takes about 5 to 10 minutes to walk from my school to the cybercafe. And since it was like 2pm in the afternoon, it kinda sucks to walk under the scorching sun especially in Malaysia where the temperature can easily shoot up to 38 Celsius.

And so I followed the dude to his car which he parked beside the cybercafe. Hopped into the front seat and buckled up my belt. He started the car and we're off to my school.

It was like hitchhiking, but I didn't have to ask. Cool!

Dude : You come to play in Triple Net often?

Me : Yea. I like playing Starcraft and Counterstrike.

Dude : Nice. So next time we can 1 on 1 in CS if we have the time.

Me : Sure.

I wasn't the best guy to play Counterstrike but I'd play it for social sake. A few minutes later, we arrived at my school's front gate.

Me : What's your name? I don't even know how to address you.

Dude : Billy.

Me : Your surname?

Billy : Why? I don't want to let you know. What are you gonna do about it?

He smirked at me. I introduced myself as Pierre (stop laughing!) then and we bid goodbye.

This entire encounter was something special for me. You see, I didn't have much friends and I just lost my school identity. As my family is pretty strict, it doesn't culture me to talk to my parents about how I feel and emotions within me. I was the only boy in my family. My dad is a pretty strict dad which I cannot connect to back then. I was pretty much... alone. I had no one to connect to, to look up closely to nor befriend.

And out of nowhere, Billy was introduced in my life.

The very next day, was Saturday. I attended Taekwondo classes on Saturday morning normally, but due to the fact that my ingrown toenail was hurting me like mad, it made me very reluctant to attend. To add to that, I wanted to play games in Triple Net, so once again, I played truant to taekwondo classes by going to Triple Net. The funny thing about the taekwondo classes are, they start at 7.30am. That's freaking early! So I left the house about 6 something in the morning to take bus but not to school, but to Triple Net.

Triple Net was open for business normally from 9am till 2am but on certain days when business is better, they open longer or earlier. When I reached Triple Net, it was 7am. It was closed but I can see there are people inside because the lights are still up. So I stood around in front of the door, waiting for it to open.

Billy, who was apparently sleeping on the couch inside Triple Net managed to catch me waiting outside, so he opened the door and let me in so I can sit. He was taking a short nap as evidently he spent the entire night managing the cybercafe.

He wasn't lying on the couch like the picture above, don't worry. Lol

Billy : So early, huh?

Me : Yea. I'm addicted to games I think. Hehehe.

He smiled. I liked to see him smile somehow. He suddenly got up from the couch and dragged me to a PC. He switched it on and the one beside it.

Billy : Let's play Counterstrike.

Me : Okay.

And it was a marvelous gaming session due to the fact we put the speaker out loud and, we're the only ones playing the game and no else is. Well, back then the cybercafe was always full, so it was fascinating to be the only ones playing. Billy was rather good in playing Counterstrike but my frags caught up.

Me : I'm not bad, right? :P

Billy : Yea. Not bad at peeping on my monitor.

He was right. I was doing that cause I wasn't as good as he was. Lol. We played from 7am till 9.30am and by then, people were already knocking the door for Triple Net to open. We stopped playing and as he walked towards the door to open for business, I asked how much do I have to pay since I was playing since 7am. Once again, he denied my money.

And so he started managing the counter and I continued playing my games. Till about noon, I decided to call it a day due to the fact that I can't lie that my 7.30am taekwondo classes lasted till 3pm. Lol. So I went to the counter and paid Billy for the usage of the PC.

He accepted the money to much of my relief.

Billy : Where are you going?

Me : Home. Why?

Billy : I'm going lunch and then home too. Wanna join me for lunch?

Me : Okay.

We went to a hawker center next to Triple Net and ordered some food. Curry mee and stuff like that. When the food came, he insisted that he pay for all the food. Once again, a boy at 14 was truly grateful for such kindness showed by a new friend. We chatted and I really felt that I finally have someone close to now who's not from my family, for the first time. Heck, I wasn't even close to anyone from my family to be honest at that time.

After lunch, he sent me home.

Me : Where do you stay, Billy?

Billy : Sitiawan

Me : What? That's the opposite site of where I stay!

Billy : Nevermind. I can still fetch you.

This was not an act that anyone would pull off easily. He was willing to go through all the trouble to send me home and I was shocked since he demanded nothing from me. Upon reaching home, I thanked him for the ride and bid him farewell.

It was no doubt the sweetest thing someone had ever done in my entire 14 years of life. There's so much more that he did for me. But that's going to be shared on the next post. Yes, I'm doing this for my suspense. Lol.

Billy and I grew closer as time passed. And by closer, it meant both physically and emotionally (at least on my end). He started touching me.

And the best part of all, I let him do so. Lol.

It started off as a pat on the head and pinch on my face. You know, some people thinks that fat kids are cute and stuff. So, I let him do so. But things didn't stop there. Whenever I'm sitting on a chair playing games, occasionally he'll come by where I sit, and share the seat with me. And by share, I'm not talking about left side, right side sharing. He came and sat right behind me and I was leaning on him.

Yes, he back hugged me when he sat with me. Sometimes, he guide my right hand when playing games too, such as Counterstrike as he's a better player than I was. I was shocked at first, but I didn't feel anything wrong but in fact, I liked the feeling of being close to him. So, I happily sat with him, surrounded by his arms and the feeling of warmth and care.

And to add more icing to the cake, he kissed me too. On my cheeks.

That was the first time I was kissed by another person other than my parents. I felt.. loved.

Bear in mind that at that time.. I was totally rebellious in nature and felt unloved by my family. My parents spent their days working and when it's night time, all we did were just dining and watching television. No one bother to tell each other what was new in our lives. I think it was due to the influence of my dad, who will never ever share what was happening around in his life. So for some of us who do, we eventually gave up sharing because.. no one cared nor listened. Thus.. to felt loved and appreciated again.. it was a feeling like no other.

I think I fell for Billy since then.

Whenever I was around, he'll hug and hold my hands irregardless of other people looking. Neither did I care since I was happy to be with him. But the peak of the care and love he showed was during the year end holiday when I was in Form 2, right before I started Form 3.

I was sick one day. Sore throat to be exact. No, I didn't swallow anything thick. Lol. I just happened to have sore throat, okay? And the best thing of all, I traveled from my house out to Triple Net to play computer games and hoping to see Billy. Yes, I did saw him. But he wasn't in his happiest face when he heard my voice.

He was angry at me and asked why didn't I see a doctor. I said, it wasn't necessary. I just want to play games. :P

And so I sat down and played Starcraft for a few hours. After one of the round finished, he came to me and pulled me off the PC without even checking it out (paying). I was surprised that he pulled me out. I didn't ask where was he taking me but I just followed along.

He brought me to a clinic, did the registration for me and ensure that the doctor examined my throat properly (not by putting thick and hard object in it, I assure you). After collecting the medication and paying the medical fees, he drove me to his house right after packing a pack of porridge for me from a hawker center.

Once we reached his house, he served me the porridge in a glass bowl. He asked for me to eat the porridge before I take my medication. I noticed that there were ginger in it and I hate eating porridge with ginger which I then told him. He proceeded to take out every single piece of sliced ginger in that bowl, which was no doubt a cibai difficult task. Lol.

After he did that.. he approached me and spoon fed me the porridge like in those Korean drama scene where the hero spoon feed the sick girlfriend. Lol. OMFG. My image is so ruined by sharing my experience here. Lol.

After that, he watched and ensured that I took the medication right in front of him. Then, he asked me to rest on his couch which I did and he went upstairs to take a bath. Once he was done with his bath, he fetched me home, passed me the medication when I got down and reminded me to take them at regular hours. Ain't he such an angel?

This experience really knocked me off the cliff to the extend I was deeply in love with him. Ever since then, I long to see him to the extend I was willing to go Triple Net to play computer games everyday after school. I was doing everything I can to spend time with him.

The bad news was.. Playing computer games in a cybercafe requires money and sad to say, my student allowance wasn't exactly very much due to the fact that my parents aren't well off. That didn't stopped me at all, as I even resorted to stealing money from my parents just to go Triple Net, to play games so I could see Billy.

Yes, I was a naughty naughty boy. No spanking please. Lol.

However, all was not smooth cause I started to grow hair on my chest despite the fact I've increased my frequency of visit to Triple Net to see Billy, he appeared to be missing from the cybercafe quite often. He was often busy doing work outside and as a result, most of my visit were void of his presence.

To make things worse, my parents caught me stealing their money and I did received hell of a spanking despite the fact I was already 15. Lol. So, I'm troubled due to the fact I can't visit Triple Net that often anymore, and I can't see Billy much at all. What happened next in my life?

Today, I'm going to share the story that changed my life around.

After getting used to the online crowd of gays, I started to look for someone special that I can love and love me back for who I was deep inside since I wasn't exactly the best looking dude back then. Even though I was fat, my standards for a boyfriend aren't very low. Come on, I was not going to date another fat or ugly guy just because I was fat, okay? Yes, I was that unrealistic back then. Lol.

I was still anonymous back then with the nickname Yaoi^. That was the nickname I used back then and it meant 'gay' in Japanese. I was anonymous because, most of the chatters that were regular in the chatroom all have self pictures which they trade and I, unfortunately didn't have one nor the balls to actually take one and display it proudly. Well, I'll attribute it to my fatness for my lack of self esteem.

However, due to my not so bad communication skills, I was able to get acquainted with a few nice gay friends and one of them was really cute. His name was Seamus. Seamus was 2 years younger than I was back then. This happened when I have completed my first year in UTP and was having my semester break. Seamus was a cutie in my eyes back then. He had a pair of seductive eyes in the pictures he sent me and I was instantly seduced by his photos. No, I didn't jerk off looking at his photos (though I admit I might have done something much more imagining him in my mind back then).

He was a typical kid. Lots of emotional problems with family, school and hated the world. Childish if you ask me to summarize it now but back then I was very willing to listen to his 'problems' and give him some opinions and suggestions on how to handle them which most of the time he didn't bother following. But I was happy to be there and care for him back then. Our relationship got closer as time passed by. He gave me his house phone number and I started calling him to talk every late night after my parents were asleep. We talked about a lot of things but never on sex (cause I was a chicken).

I started to fall for him not long after that in which I told him and asked if I'd have a chance to be his boyfriend. He told me that we were too far apart as of then (I was in UTP, some ulu place in Perak, he was in KL). He asked me to leave it to fate if we're meant to be together. However, he promised that he'll consider me as his boyfriend as he was single at that time. I was happy when he told me that. That was the first time I was being considered to be a boyfriend!! Woohoo!!

I started calling him deary names such as "Dear, Darling, Baby" which probably could freeze Hell over if Satan heard me said those names. And he was kind enough to let me call him such names. I was really happy... till one day.

Seamus called me and asked if he could meet up with me in KL cause his parents were going out of town. He wanted me to travel to KL and meet him over the weekend so we can go dating before he confirm our relationship. He suggested that I could stay over at his house during the weekend trip. When I heard about this, I was overjoyed!! Finally, I get to meet Seamus, the boy that I was infatuated with. ^_^

But there was one point that we never brought up in the relationship we had so far before. He had never ever asked for my display picture nor asked how I looked like. I brought this topic up to him and informed him that I wasn't the best looking guy in the world. In fact, I fell into the range of fugly guys (I'm very honest and harsh even to myself). He didn't really buy my story at first but he was cautious. He asked if I could let him see a picture of myself. I didn't have any digital copy of my pictures back then which I told him. He just replied that it was okay, he'll get to see how I look when the following weekend. I couldn't bear to keep it hidden from him nor surprised him that I was a hideous monster thus I went to all the trouble to scan my photo in a cybercafe and sent it to him.

*Online Chat*

Seamus : Oh my God!! You're fat!!

Me : Yea.. I told you I wasn't the best looking guy around.

Seamus : Ugly is one thing... but fat.. Eeeeee..

Me : ........... Does this means you don't want to meet me anymore? Should I cancel my trip to your place this weekend?

Seamus : No la. It's okay. You can still come. We can hangout.

Me : Are you sure...? If you don't want to see me anymore cause I'm fat and ugly, you can just said so. I can take it.

Seamus : I'm sure. Hey, I gotta go now. Talk to you the next time I'm online yea?

And he went off.

The very next day, he got online and I happened to be online everyday back then cause during semester breaks, there was little to do at home.

Seamus : Hi Yaoi.

Me : Hi Seamus baby!

Seamus : Erm.. If I tell you something, please don't get upset, can?

Me : Okay.. (I got a hunch that he's calling off my trip to visit him in KL)

Seamus : My godbro is taking me to Cameron Highlands this weekend for his birthday. He forced me to follow him for the trip. So..

Me : I cannot go visit you at KL this weekend..

Seamus : Yea... I'm really really sorry. But my godbro forces me to go along. He treated me so nice all this while. I couldn't refuse him. I'm sorry Yaoi. I promise you can visit me in KL next time, okay?

Me : Sure.

I went offline after that. I cried my heart out. I knew this was going to happen but I still couldn't swallow it in that easy. I was sad despite the fact I know the world is very realistic. I was disappointed not by him.. but by myself. Despite the fact I know how realistic the world is, I didn't do anything to improve myself. I was really devastated by this incident.

To find out more, check out my old blog which I am surprised it's still here. Lol.

If you're to lazy to read my crappy blog back then, after he came back from Cameron, he ignored me totally be it online chat or phone calls. He didn't reply a single message I sent him since and as much as I would like to believe that he was indeed forced to comply with his godbro's request to go Cameron, I'm very sure the ignoring part is definitely due to his discovery of how I looked.

His rejection got my gears on to do the most important thing in my life as a faggot. To improve my outlook. I lost 40kgs in 6 months time after this incident. I will share with you what I did and my journey in a first person's point of view, rather than a 3rd person's point of view which you can get from my backdated blog post.